Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Flattery and a Lack Thereof

"You weigh less than you did when you were dating your husband," my scale tells me.

"You look good for a mother of four," some say.

My clothes, though? And photos? They do not flatter.

All they tell me is, "You're Too Large." (jerks)

I love this photo despite my allergy eyes, partly because it reminds me that I should really get around to eating less some time soon (and mostly because I love being Evie's mom).

(Still waiting for that moment when I suddenly become excited about snacking on dried fruit and nuts and eating small portions and feeling hungry all the time and looking more like how I think of myself. And worrying it won't come until Spencer is weaned. And resigning myself to being large even though I hate it. I just don't hate it enough, I guess. And sorry for another vanity post. Ugh.)

10 comments:

Kazzy said...

When that moment hits ya I would love to know what it feels like. I have to make a conscious effort, it seems, every time I want to eat to choose the right thing. Sheesh.

Kazzy said...

ps: I think you are adorable!

Annette Lyon said...

I must be vain too. I hate that I've put on weight in the last couple of years and hate that I can't seem to get it off. I hate seeing photos of myself with a double chin. Grrr.

WV: carcare

Odd.

Becky said...

A friend of mine keeps telling me that I should love my body because this is as good as it's gonna get. For example, I could lose ten pounds, thinking it would make me love my body, but by the time I get there, I'll have ten new wrinkles. Or grey hair. Or bunions.

All in all, I'm not sure if that makes me feel better or worse.

Whatevs. We're always harder on ourselves than other people. Cuz I think you're adorable too.

Heather said...

I just did a weight-loss challenge with some friends. I didn't loose much because I couldn't get totally into the diet mode, because I am breastfeeding. I don't know why I signed up for it. I think your body just holds on to some extra weight when your breastfeeding, just in case the baby needs it.

Kimberly said...

You don't look large...or even large-ish (you have a WAIST - I'm quashing feelings of envy). You look happy.

But I'm in that same boat, of wishing I wanted it more (of course, I'm 50 pounds overweight, but whether we're 10 or 50 we're allowed to be upset and want better for ourselves).

Moody said...

It will come off...dieting is not worth it IMO. And yeah, it seems like your body will hold on to 5-10lbs in case of famine when you're nursing. It's kind of like food storage. lol

Tristi Pinkston said...

I think photos are evil. We'd all feel better about ourselves if we didn't have photos. I say we launch a campaign to do away with them altogether.

AndyPandyJackaDandy said...

I think Tristi is on to something. Do you ever wonder about those people who love to see themselves in photos? What's up with THAT?!

Susan said...

I can't relate. Just look at my fab-u-lous photos at Micah and Heather's wedding.